Posted by the_huntress at 11:06 AM on August 19, 2006.

Last August 5, 2006, the best gift God has given me had died. It's none other than Mimi. To be honest, I feel like my heart has been taken away from me. I can't function properly. And even my own family couldn't equal the love and comfort Mimi has given me these past years.

 As you all know, Mimi has been battling a type of liver disease since 2004. but on late 2005, he had recovered. His jaundice was gone, his skin returned to being light pink. He even gained a lot of weight and he had the shiniest coat. His face was also that of the most handsome cat God has ever created. But this early august, he had complications with his liver. He had developed ascites. It is like liver cirrhosis on us humans, And it is a fatal disease because there is fluid accumulation on the abdomen. Every liquid that he drinks, instead of circulating around his body, goes straight into his abdomen, making it overly bloated. On August 3, he was confined and was on IV fluids for two days. But I noticed that he was becoming more and more sick in the animal clinic. I also noticed that the fluids has reached his heart and lungs, making him drown inside. He was stressed and lonely. And on the 4th of August, I had a strong feeling that something bad will happen, so I checked him out despite the veterinarian's disagreement. By the next day, at around 6pm, he passed away. I watched him die. For three hours, with his labored breathing  and panicking, I was with him. I comforted him and massaged his body. I knew that he was in great pain and suffering too much, that all he was waiting for was my permission to set him free. After I looked him in the eye and told him how much I loved him, that no one will ever replace him in my heart, that he had served me well, that i wish God will permit us to meet again one day, that he would be happy and that he and God would guide me always, and that if he couldn't fight it anymore, he is free to go. Upon hearing that, he swished his tail lightly and took his last breath.

It felt like I was stabbed in the heart. Or even more. It was too painful that only me and God would understand. I carried his dead body and hugged him for a while in the bed I kissed him and looked at his lovely face as many times as I could for I know he wont be with me anymore.My mom took him away from me, and he and my brother buried him in a very nice shaded place. They said his face looked peaceful and like an angel. My mom wrapped him on her favorite shawl. I didnt come with them because I wont be able to handle the sight of him being buried. But my mom and brother promised me that he was buried properly. I was hysterical during that night and had a panic attack. My whole body was numb and I was vomitting. I kept on wishing that I die as well because thats how bad I wanted to be with Mimi. He's my brother, my partner and my bestfriend. Who knows? he might even be my soulmate. Because he was the only one who has given me ultimate happiness that no other person has. I was hospitalized and has to be brought to a psychiatrist and a pranic healer. I was in hysteria for a week. I was not eating. All I  did was cry. And when I felt ready to visit his grave, I decorated it to show that even if he's gone, my love for him hasnt changed. I planted bermuda grass on it and surrounded it with small fences. I also placed his name there. And everyday, no matter how much it cost, I always buy him the most beautiful flowers. Because we both love flowers and flowers, just like mimi, give me happiness and bring color to my life. Every single day I pray on his grave, water the flowers and plants I bring him and talk to him. I find solace there. Sometimes, even at dawn, I stay there for a long time and just talk to him. When I can't fight the loneliness. You know, God and Mimi are my rocks. Without them, I was long gone. And now that Mimi is gone, Physically, I'm alone. My family cant provide enough support for me although they try.

To most of you, I must sound crazy. But let me tell you what caused all of this. Since I was in late high school, my family has been a mess. I had no communication with my parents, especially my father. They arent the affectionate and caring type. Me, on the other hand, was being trapped on the middle because of their dispute. I was immature then and had to grow up quickly. I had my friends, yes, but they can't be there for me all the time. They had their own issues too. So what I did was create my own little world with my pets, especially Mimi and isolated myself from the outside world. Because me and my mom cant get along, my dad wasnt there, my mom also disliked my peers, so I gave up and confined myself at home. And Mimi, Mimi was the only companion I had. Do you believe when I say that pets have a strong telepathic ability? And that their love is unconditional? Because I attest to that. Mimi was always there every night I cry. It was only him and God who knew my real burden. I became so attached, abnormally attached to mimi that's why I couldnt live without him and it is just too painful. It feels like I'm physically functioning but on the inside, I had died a long time. This is the most painful, the hardest phase of my life right now, and I'm leaving myself to God because as of now, I don't know what to do anymore. I hope that when the time comes that I too leave this world, God will permit Mimi and I to reunite and be with him. I have a strong faith in Him because I know He is most loving.

During my pranic healing session, the healer who was clairvoyant sensed that mimi's spirit has evolved into a puppy who is very happy and hyperactive. Coincidentally though, the day before that, someone gave me a female shih tzu puppy. I dont personally know the person who gave it to me. My aunt does. But it was very nice of her to give it to me because the puppy somehow makes me happy. After I told the healer that I was given a puppy a day ago, she was stunned and was sure that mimi is her. I don't know whether to believe her or not. I really want to because that means mimi is with me again. But as for the catholic teaching, the animals' spirits return to God after they die. I just pray to God that whichever is true, that He please let me feel it. And I always ask him and mimi to guide me because they're the only strength I have left.

Rest in peace Mimi. I love you very much. I hope I too, had served to well and that you will always remember me. You will always be in my heart and in my mind. Thank you for saving my life. You are the best pet there is. --Ate Krys.

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